Letting go

If ever there was a year with a theme, it had to be this one. Here’s to letting go. Here’s to new peace and piece of mind. Here’s to giving others the space to let go of things, too. Here’s to hope. Continue reading →

Leeves

He can now say “mine” in a very cute way, not in a mean way (don’t worry, I know it’s coming along with the rest of the twos). It’s like, he’s actually understanding the separation of himself as a person as compared to others. He also has the cutest names for things “meow meow” the … Continue reading →

Six years in…

And mother’s day is still a complicated day. Last year was the worst, with people wishing me happiness on my first “real” mother’s day. This year, less talk of that, all the kids were home, we had our lovely individual outings the day before and they made me cute cards to open the day of. … Continue reading →

This weekend some cute things happened.

Found my red shoes, and I love them. Finally feeling cute as I grow more giant in the baby-growing regions. Ten-year-old (since when is she TEN!?) spontaneously tells me the best part of getting hurt a couple years back (not that she wants to get hurt bad enough to require surgery again) was being able … Continue reading →

Be the goddamn tortoise

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Because I don’t want to forget.

At ten months he started walking, a few steps at a time. It was just days after the big kids went back up to Flagstaff to start school. Eleven months, and he’s giving fives, pointing to what he wants to eat, sneaking out through the cat door, clapping, and just the other day figured out … Continue reading →

A little happy birthday

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I’m not entirely certain how I feel about the fact I’m dreaming again at night.

It’s exhausting having a dream life, unless it’s just my brain trying to play catch up after all these months of little time all the way asleep. More often than not these past two nights I’m awake when everyone else is asleep, processing the alternate reality. Indicative of my year with cars. Continue reading →

Balance

There are rooms in this building that hold people who make decisions that can hopefully change some lives for the better. Soon, Universe, soon. I’m growing weary of the waiting, and have this pressing sense that we’re running out of time to make the most difference possible. I can see the better path, but I … Continue reading →

This morning

This morning there were four shoes and four bodies asleep in beds with feet enough to fill each shoe. This morning we woke, prepared for the first day of school, packing lunches in a hotel room. This morning we ate breakfast, together, getting sweet smiles and compliments about our lovely family before we set off … Continue reading →